Dear Cupcake,
You’re not my first dog during my lifetime, but you’re the first dog I adopted in this stage life of mine. Remember the first time we met? I picked you up by myself in Bandung. And you were the chosen up. I bet you’re so happy when I decided to take you home. To refresh your memory, here is your Dogster profile.
But it didn’t last long. It was only until C’est Moi came as another additional family member…
Then you got closer to Mbok Yah as she was the one who took you for a walk almost every afternoon. I didn’t spend much time with you anymore. I am so sorry, Cupcake. Yes, I admit that I showed favoritism. It’s not that I didn’t find you cute or adorable anymore, but because C’est Moi was so tiny and he was fit well inside my bag. It was easier for me to bring him around. I knew I broke your heart, but Cupcake, I want you to know how guilty I have been feeling since you died that Saturday morning when I went to Pasar Modern BSD with Indira and family.
Dear Cupcake,
When a loved one died, there’s no use to regret things. Well, you’re gone anyway and you didn’t do anything wrong, so you wouldn’t understand this. Not because you’re a dog, but because you’ve been waggling your tail on the Rainbow Bridge since June 26, 2010. I don’t know if I were regretful, but I believe things happen for a reason. God loves you so much, that He decided to take you Home before the chaos in my life happens. If you were still alive today, maybe I’d given up on you as well as I still haven’t had a permanent place to stay. So Cupcake, be thankful to God, and please don’t hate me, even though I might deserve it.Cupcake,
Have you met C’est Moi? Maybe you did. And you two are playing together now. And I believe Heaven treats you two much better than I ever could.
Dear Cupcake,
There’s a question I might want to ask God when He calls me Home someday. What’s the cause of your sudden death? You seemed okay even the night before you died, and you didn’t show any symptom of any sickness. Tante Donna said that somebody wanted to attack the owner of the house where we were staying, and the bad spell hit you. You were my shield, because it might be me who got killed at that time. Well, this sounds dramatic, doesn’t it, Cupcake? But I do believe so. So, thank you, Cupcake. Thank you for giving your life, so I still can live today… You’re a martyr to me!
Lovely Cupcake,
I bet you smell good now in Heaven, and I hope you finally get a boyfriend or even a husband there. You died as a virgin. Wow. I don’t know if I should feel sorry or should I feel proud of you for this? I am not joking, but I hope you find a goodlooking canine up there and you two have had puppies that look as cute as you.
Hey Cupcake,
Do you remember Mike? The American guy who came and gave you loads of toys? He’s around again. I have met him once, but I don’t think I feel like seeing him again. He once said your name should be “Meatloaf” instead of “Cupcake”, because as a Pug, you’re the biggest dog among those Chihuahuas :))
And if I haven’t told you yet, I was so happy when I finally adopted a dog. You. Yest, you. Because I’d been dreaming of naming my next adopted furry kid “Cupcake” since the ex-girlfriend of Bryan named her dog “Cupcakes”. I thought it’s such a cute name for a dog, and I want it so much.
Oh, and the reason why I didn’t adopt a dog earlier because my mother suffered from Lupus. And Lupus bearers aren’t allowed to keep a pet, because it might worsen their health. Now you know why. And maybe you have met my beautiful Mom as well up there.
Hey,
How close is the Rainbow Bridge from Heaven? I’m curious…
Okay, Cupcake. I should end this letter soon, or I’d be full of shits. Anyways, once again, please accept my apology and my gratitude. For once, for some years, you shared your happiness with me - and I thank you for that…
Thank you, thank you, thank you, Cupcake. Terima kasih, Kue Mangkokku…
Woof of luv,
Connie
---Oleh: @Dear_Connie
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