letter’s intro

o whom it may concern,

to whom my heart belongs.

this is a challenge for me, to participate on @perempuansore ‘s hashtag #30harimenulissuratcinta. but too many things i wanted to say, that you couldnt hear from your side of the walls. the walls you’ve been building thick and tall with dissapointment and regret.

last night, i screamed my heart out to you, and you listened. but after that night, both my nerve and my voice had ran out. only anxiety, curiosity and never ending questions left unsaid, following by your silence. you didnt even react, scream back, let alone climb the walls and go get me. so, like a soldier who’s lost his war, i retreat, i forfeit.

but still,

too many things i wanted to say, so maybe from today to the next 29 days, this is how i’m gonna do it. i hope somehow, someway, you’ll read this. who knows? maybe now, today, next 2 weeks, or later after i finished this, maybe after we’re together eventually, or after we’re friends eventually.

bottom line is, i’m gona show you this pack of 30 letters. it’s yours anyway, from the moment i thought about what to write, then wrote it, erased a little, add a little, smiley-faced a little, enter, then push the ‘create post’ button. all yours.

so, anyway, gotta go. one last note,

someday it would be me saying this to you, not writing it staring at my computer screen.

until then ;)

---Oleh: @diantra

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